What I Remembered Later

Hitchhiking thumb cold

It was cold

And there was fog

And there were lights

And then a car

And I was …

And there were lights

And then a car

And there was fog

And it was cold

And I was …

Movement …

Moving cold fog

Cold fog lights car

Tire hiss

Passing car

Wet cold fog lights

Passing car tire hiss

And …

There was a big bank

And there was neon sign

And there was time

And there was a dark bridge

And cold

And I was …

There was cold

And fog around lights

And there were car lights

And there was vicious cold

And there was time

And then a car

And I was …

Lights car fog cold time

And I was …

Cold thoughts time …

Thoughts of time

Time thoughts cold

Thoughts cold time

Cold time thoughts

Thoughts of cold

Thoughts cold time

Thoughts of thoughts

Movement …

Moving cold fog thoughts

Cold fog lights car

Tire hiss passing

Wet cold fog lights

Car tire hiss

And thoughts

White fog white lights

White fog car tire hiss

White car passes

White car stopped

Wet cold fog cold

Wet

Cold

And I was …

White car window buzz

White car door clunk

White car warm air

White warm car seat

And he said …

And I said …

And I was …

Moving

Warm white car

“Thank you”

Warm white car

“Thank you”

“Look … I’m …”

And he said … more

“I’m going …”

And I said … more

Something something

“You’re cute …”

“Look … I’m …”

And he said … more

“I can’t …”

And I said … more

Something something

Blah blah blah

Cold outside fog

Warm car inside warm

He drove

I sat

He spoke

I spoke

His voice frowned

His voice frowned

“Don’t play innocent.”

“I’m not playing …”

His voice frowned

“I think you’re …”

And then I …

And then he …

And then his hand

And then my face

And car window crack

And then my blood

And then I sat

And then he drove

And I sat quiet

And I tried to …

And then his hand …

And his voice frowned

Then there was time

And there was fog

Outside cold

Heat inside

I felt his hand

And his hand …

And then his hand …

And then I tried to …

And his voice frowned

And then his hand …

And then my face

And then my blood

Warm car hot car hell car

Cold fog cold street cold heaven

Fog heaven car hell

Moving fog car stopping

Silent fog

Screaming car

And then he and then

He and then he and

Then he and then he

And then he and then

He and then he

And I was …

         Outside

         Outside pain

         Outside tears

         Outside

And the car was …

         Moving

And then I was …

But I didn’t say …

But I didn’t tell …

But I didn’t speak …

And news said …

But I read and read  …

And later …

         And later there were

Others …

         Only they were …

         But I was …

And each had been …

         But I was …

And news said …

Blah blah blah

         Policeman dead

         By suicide

Blah blah blah

         More than ten

Blah blah blah

         Victims teenage boys

Blah blah blah

         Sex murders

Blah blah blah

         Policeman guilty

Blah blah blah

         Hitchhiking

         Dangerous to teens

Read it again

Read it again

Read it again

The picture

That’s him that’s him

That’s him!

Blah blah blah

         At least ten

         Only they were …

         And each had been …

        

But I wasn’t …